Teenage Passions, joys and despair!
This is the Day
This is the day that only I can live!
These are the steps that only I can take
This is the work that only I can do.
This is a moment I can share with you.

These are the visions that only I can see.
These are the sounds that only I can hear.
These are the hands that I use for play.
These are words that only I can say.

These are the thoughts that only I can think.
This is the moment only I can celebrate.
‘When?’ is the only doubt that can deceive.
These are the blessings only I can receive.

This is the grief only I can forgive.
This is the art only I can create
This is the love that only I can feel.
God’s blessings are the ones that heal.

Now is the life that only I can live.
Still is the time that I know is mine.
This is the gift only I can send.
This is the day that will never end.

Freedom flows from flexibility and favourable feelings.

Steiner describes the initial teenage years (11 to 16) as the time of questioning, challenging and rebellion, when the young person is battling to discover his /her own unique individuality.
 Who’s who at the zoo    
Is this me or is it you?
When I see you, do you see me
Is it me in you that I see?
Is it you that’s really free?

 Don’t think big of yourself,
Don’t think bad of yourself,
Be bold but not brazen.
Think beautiful thoughts;
Try to be like honey – sweetly flowing into each situation.

At this time most parents feel a little more challenged! However, at this time, some teenagers and their parents manage to retain a kind and compassionate disposition established during childhood; this time is thereby, especially enjoyable because of the companionship shared with members of the family and friends.

Having a happy home helps holistic healing to happen.

When I have the humility to ask for help
You are there unconditionally
When I asked you to meet my needs
They stand as a wall between us.
When I give up demands for happiness
The now in each moment initiates my joy
When I believe in separation my world falls apart
When I say ‘I want you to love me’, I know I’m being selfish
When I walk alone heavenly beings always hold my hand
And guide me to where unity has no shape or form
And I see the un-describable shape of glory.
If living is learning
Learning is living?

If every beginning has an end   
Every end is a beginning ?

If love is joy
Is Joy always love?

If play is creativity
Is creativity play?

If blessings are free
Freedoms are blessings?

If ‘later’ dissolves grace
Is grace only fixed within ‘now’

If faith embraces doubts
Can doubts embrace faith ?

If compassion requires gratitude
Gratitude must require compassion?

If forgiveness requires surrender
Does surrender always include forgiveness ? (for ourselves and/or others)
Your wilful grasp of independence protects your vulnerability and those hurts that you fear you cannot heal yourself. Know you are a powerful healer, when you are willing to be your own healer everyone around you will also be healed and strengthen. You are doing very well, your best tomorrow will always be more than your best today, you feel this and know it to be true.
Sadness, a quiet hurting that is un-see-able, untouchable, yet understandable. Life’s lessons are set for each individual, yours are your own, guaranteed to bring you through to a greater happiness for living. You know a soft happiness that is always sweet, we like you to share it with us, it helps us relax from our struggles and smile at our troubles

Your light is not so hidden, now, we see a shining and feel graced by your sharing. You are like the sunlight clear and untainted. Your own path will always bring you and others great blessings, helping us all to celebrate that our own strengths are only found if we trust to let our inner goodness shine outward to light our way. So Be it

You are like a queen capable and strong, yet it is the good princess that is most adored. You shine with a specialness that is fondly embraced when you dare to show us the playful princess. Life is a short celebration best not drift too far from the party, even ‘out of tune’ celebrations initiate learning how to create a more harmonious future.

Embrace your desires to construct creatively, engage all your gifts and ask for every aspect of your being to be engaged in your service unto the world. Your soul longs for a deeper union with your inner happiness and your desire to share authentically. Do not be shy, do not be silly, your own playful happiness will always guide you and bring light to your chosen path. Flexibility is the ultimate learning, every obstacle, however large or small, is there to guide your healing, every difficulty is there to encourage your independent thinking.

Know your happiness will grow as you gain the courage to share yourself even more openheartedly with those who care about you. Your dreams are fulfilled because your heart is nurtured with the goodness you deserve. Be gentle on yourself and allow all joys to fill you with blissful contentment now and always.

Be bold and confident in yourself; Supreme Grace is not rationed according to individual worth, it is unlimited and eternally presented to us all. The gift of acceptance is the greatest gift to give yourself and those around you. Gratitude is always washing away our self-doubts, always flowing towards us, around us, within us.

Gratitude grows in gardens of genuine goodness

You are a Star Child, born to bring grace and heart-warming experiences to those around you. Goodness is natural to you, just as a colourful lifestyle is constantly yours to share. You do not always need to feel a kinship with others feelings and experiences because your growing understanding of others and their different points of view will be your greatest asset, and as you gain confidence in yourself you will appreciate your own company and the benefits of being your own best friend – something we all need to learn!

If you can receive my abilities as a resource that can support your own achievements.
If you can respect how much easier it is when we work together
Celebrating our own and each other’s special qualities,
Uniting in the name of Highest Good.
Then our differences will become the strengths that bind us together in the light and protect us from confusion and judgements!

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All sweetness becomes too sweet without reflection and contrast. These are the tools of contemplation. With them we can use balance to bring the precious gift of harmony. The nature world is our spiritual guide – celebration is the eternal dance of life.

If you feel encouragement know it is there to help you celebrate your hearts desires. When you feel held in by social structures or physical restraints know it is to help you pace yourself and take time to grow deeper roots of gratitude. Your authenticity has no keeper outside of yourself – YOU hold the key safely in your heart.

Please forgive my moments of constraint for they are fuelled by worldly limitations. Everyone swings into moments of resistance which compound restraints on our freedom and stifle creativity. Life disrupts our eternity with bitter and sweet distractions. Without these exchanges our existence may have no meaning. For how could we feel love if we were eternally immersed in its favour. Upon separation the heart becomes more appreciative of what has been lost. When we find love in our barren landscape of materialism we feel ecstatic pleasure and while embracing separation as a divine gift, the joyful treasures of devotional service perpetuate our loving experiences.

When the yang arrow energy takes command it passes through all doubts and distractions and clutches the hand of time with purpose in the doing. With this we structure the nature of our reality.
When the Yin energy sets your heart afloat, all is like a dream. Safely, like a leaf along the stream, we drift spinning in the tones of spontaneity. Moments of natural stillness give time for contemplation and appreciation.

Now your light is not so hidden, we see a shining and feel graced by your sharing. You are like the sunlight clear and untainted. Your own path will always bring you and others great blessings, helping us all to celebrate that our own strengths are only found if we trust to let our inner goodness shine outward to light our way.

When travelling over turbulent seas of life
Don’t waste your Time &Energy fighting to steer the boat,
These exhausting efforts will endanger, not ensure your safety.
Allow the storms and currents to take you on your way;
Lay still and ride the raging seas until the break of day.
Be assured, at the end of your journey, no matter how stressful or frightening
The tides of life will lead you to the land of your dreams.
Learning about Love: the boy/girlfriend relationship Rollercoaster!

My heart is still warmed by the joys that we shared together. I feel the angels holding our soul-spirits in their safe keeping. The trials of life are there to test our hearts longings with pains of separation in-order to rekindle the strong fires of soulful devotion.

Measuring Love
And what case is there to study and what mode of measurement can be undertaken
That defines the amount of love I can give to you? or you can give to me?
For love is not to be taken!
Impossible to hold within any definitive specification.
Love is simply a willingness that echoes between two beings;
Heard as a truth that softens ones endeavours like melting butter.
Only in the grasp of a surrendered moment can love of life ignite an intimate exchange.
Yet brave are those who dare to gaily follow love’s calling,
For its purity illuminates the rigidity of fearful scaffolding that imprisons our hearts and tortures our minds
Only within shadows of darkness may false measures of postponement, disillusion and confusion command an absence of love.
It is within the aching heart that the gloominess of isolation linger,
And within the controlling mind that issues of separation are recalled;
Only within the emotions of grief can regrets fuel the fires of exclusion.
Love is to be found as a sweet reflection of what has been given in truth-
Sourced by divine association and spontaneously expressed within moments of authenticity.
Like the angels’ prayers, love floats beyond the measures of our time
Within an exalted domain.

Struggling To Find Courage 
A drama but not an entertainment,
An illusion but not a bunch of lies,
Without harmony but not negative,
Intelligent but not thinking!

Hungry but not wanting to be fed,
Praying but not bound within a religion,
Listening without hearing,
Like falling with nowhere to land……..

Still but not entirely exhausted,
Slow but are not reduced to creeping,
Ill but not really dying,
Forgotten but not asleep.

Withdrawn but not, as yet, eliminated,
Needing but not wanting to be taking,
Drained but still wishing to receive,
Lost but not a loser.

Again and Again
Kiss each moment and release it into the winds of time
Embrace each thought and place it at Gods feet
Surrender to the essence of today and feel the stillness of tomorrow’s breath
Remember to celebrate and dance in the circles of eternity.

For I can-not love
I cannot love anyone
I cannot love you
For my capacity to love is fed by discrimination, my desire to receive love,
and to feel loved.
Where ever I am, the I denies the very existence of a supreme and infinite source of love.
When I acknowledge that God is within my heart still I cannot really love.
For in truth I am in the heart of God, only when I remember and feel His unconditional loving presence, that which flows with infinite abundance around you and me; only then can I emanate angelic thoughts that welcome my lessons on unconditional love.
With love
…..I will weep at your leaving
In celebration of the joys which entwined us.
Be assured you will always be in my happiness
And a part of me will look to our reunion,
Quietly waiting for the song of being with you again.

It was comforting for me to know that you have not locked the door between us.
For when a closed door is locked
It creates a prison,
And I love to see you free

(The two ends of the stick called intimacy)
Joy and sadness entwined
Somehow there is joy in the tears that flow down my cheeks and off my nose
Somehow there is joy in my heart as it breaks ….

Unbridled his love will grow
Yes I have loved he who now comes to thee
With open heart he has chosen you.
He comes to you a stallion free.
You are his special one,
His one and only.
Know that I have done you no harm.
Be assured his love for you stands strong and true,
I’m merely took the bit and bridle from his head,
He will run beside you, protect and guide you.
Unbridled his love will grow beyond
What it could previously have been.
Have courage abandoned the reins of restraint
Trust him for he cannot make any decision against you.
For neither you nor he can alter destiny.

Just a few days Before you go. Just a few days To get to know How close we can be How to love all we see. Just a few hours To find our way.

Just a few hours. To love and play. How will you feel Before you go? How will it be………. For you?…….For me?

Why fear
Why it will be as easy to part as it was to share time together,
Total separation is impossible
For nothing can disappear,
It simply changes its form.
We do not need to dismantle one love
In order to move forward with another.
New love grows upon the tree of life
Past love determines the strength of the branches
And the depth of the roots.

If a smile upon your face was the warming preface to a sweet embrace,
If in your seeing my dancing your heart started prancing,
If love was your passion for my life airs and devotion,
If hearing my voice was a welcome tune to rejoice,
If your thoughts were intimate notes in a world of confusion,
If love is blind, it did appear that, not so long ago you did love me so

So the dream fragments into small pieces of remembrance
And splinters of reality pierce my heartfelt illusions.
An emptiness sits awaiting the tears of regret
Wrapped in the quiet breaths of an unknown tomorrow.
My mind wrings each thought of happiness into a dry disturbance
And disrupts the joys of today with a dull resilience
That holds tomorrow captured in some, not easily found, faraway place.
Alone again
The world is so wonderful that what do I see…?
Distress and anxiety.
My love’s betrayal brings the darkness of depression;
As I fight to regain the part of me that still belongs to him.

The open plains of tomorrow our minds behold,
But like the wind I remain lost and cold.
Fortunate am I that time Marches on, for if it had waited for me
Winter would never become spring and nothing would bloom again.

Responsibility
The melancholy of knowing I am in charge
Lurks so closely around me I can’t see my own shadow;
What might I create from this desperate ache of loneliness?
As it clings to both attachment and rejection.
Linking closely with anyone may be obsessive-overwhelming.
So I stay away from this intimate nurturing,
And the more my parched soul thirsts for it
The more needy and desperate I become.
And I fear in my haste to pacify my raging thirst
I will lung into the river of life and drown –
Yet again!

Teenage passions and joys verses Anguish and despair

Disturbance comes from someone’s invitation.
Only and if, have no place within forgiveness.
There are no dos or don’ts in deliverance.
Distraction never brings blessings.
Remembrance is a choice.
Imitation is self taught.

My Confusion
Laughter without music,
Sleep without relaxation,
Colour without seeing,
Sun shine without warmth,
Time without any kisses.

Thoughts without any dreams,
Play without any spontaneity,
Arriving without any destination,
Alone without any separation,
Standing without any stillness.

Yes I am dying !?
My heart still aches and that dying just won’t happen
So I must live with a sigh
Mourn with a cry
Pretend I can die
And walk with a smile that’s full of denial
Be in this moment for the future has gone and with it my song.
What’s that you say, ‘try to be strong,
The hurting within, it won’t last long’
Yes, now I’ve finished this poem it’s almost gone…………!?

Indulgence
I despair in my freedom
As I wander through the land of loneliness,
Grasping at what comforts I find
Violently opposing every misdemeanour.

Happy moments are treasured,
Like the sunshine before a storm.
Anxiety stabs at my contentment

Self pity magnifies my frustration –
Monsterising every conflict.
Heartache poisons my emotions with bitterness and misunderstanding.